Fix You, Fix Me.

Okay, I am back.

...with a lot of sweats (probably?). Hmm yeah, this semester was pretty tiring, I am glad I am almost reaching its end. Be ready to be ended, damn semester haha

Dunno why but I feel more and more tired each semester, although the lessons were not become more difficult (well, maybe they were) but maybe it's just because I become more impatient to reach my future.

I have so many plans ahead, but college forbid me doing that. I cannot do it now because college also blocking my way. This sometimes drove me crazy.

But I cannot surrender in this state. I hate giving up on something, and I hate doing job half-done too. I just have to finish this awesomely. No matter what.

 My senpai(s) are going to leave me behind; My friends also, coz they took easier degree than me, allowing them to be graduated faster. I have to be prepared to be lonelier as the time goes by.

But feel no fear, I have sweetest gf in my side. With her everything is possible. Yeah, I am lucky anyway ;)

Although sometimes I got mixed up with my problems in college, driven crazily with that... I am sorry dear... :(

Maybe sometimes I also got busy with my college works... Or confused with my financial problem... Or said something that hurt you even though I didn't mean it... I am so sorry if I couldn't control them all and make u mad, this is my big homework to do :(

I realized that I have so many things to be fixed... I am no more than other imperfect person, maybe I am worse. But you kept holding onto me, I am so moved and so grateful :,)

So.. Thank you and big appologize for you from me... Maybe I am already made you go tired with a lot of waiting here and there, nagging here and there, I feel so sorry if I made you go tired with these and then go mad. I am so sorry. I am trying my best to be better... ._.

Sometimes I got stuck in reverse, just like the lyrics in a song.

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed"

Then I blame the situation and get mad. Okay, that was pathetic.

Sorry and... Thanks a lot.