Hard Days.
Hmph okay, dunno why i just wanna write this tonight.
I'm so down now.
I'm clueless now.
My life-willingness is so low now.
To be honest, i don't have much friends whom i trust so much to be told my problems. I don't tell my sad stories to my family either.
Yea, i'm an introvert person.
I posted this to this blog coz i considered this blog as my diary. Who gonna read this anyway, no one maybe.
I don't care
I'm just tired talking to the wall.
I'm just tired thinking it alone in my mind.
I'm just tired crying.
Bener-bener lagi labil. Sigh.
That was the first time i was fallin in love.
A really love i mean. Not like or the others, i just love her.
The others are compared nothing to her.
She just so perfect in my eyes, even though friends of mine said that she's not that good.
We had a lot of fun together since a year ago, i become one of the closest boy-friend to her.
I was so happy with her.
For the very first time, i felt the warmth of love.
I felt the beauty of falling in love.
I need her.
I wanna see that smile everytime.
I wanna spend every of my days with her.
I just wanna be with her.
Forever.
But life is tough isn't it?
My first love, and my first heartbreak.
I don't know whether i can pass my future days without her or not.
I'm just so dead now.
I know that life must go on, but i just need some time now.
I know i can't hide this sad feelings forever.
I must be happy.
Even though she won't be on my side again.
But if that makes her happier, then
I'll be happy.
I just need times to kill this feelings.
Days, weeks, months, years, i don't know.
Probably the rest of my life.
I can't believe i'm babbling in my blog like this, but i just want to. I'm clueless, remember?
Good night.
I'm so down now.
I'm clueless now.
My life-willingness is so low now.
To be honest, i don't have much friends whom i trust so much to be told my problems. I don't tell my sad stories to my family either.
Yea, i'm an introvert person.
I posted this to this blog coz i considered this blog as my diary. Who gonna read this anyway, no one maybe.
I don't care
I'm just tired talking to the wall.
I'm just tired thinking it alone in my mind.
I'm just tired crying.
Bener-bener lagi labil. Sigh.
That was the first time i was fallin in love.
A really love i mean. Not like or the others, i just love her.
The others are compared nothing to her.
She just so perfect in my eyes, even though friends of mine said that she's not that good.
We had a lot of fun together since a year ago, i become one of the closest boy-friend to her.
I was so happy with her.
For the very first time, i felt the warmth of love.
I felt the beauty of falling in love.
I need her.
I wanna see that smile everytime.
I wanna spend every of my days with her.
I just wanna be with her.
Forever.
But life is tough isn't it?
My first love, and my first heartbreak.
I don't know whether i can pass my future days without her or not.
I'm just so dead now.
I know that life must go on, but i just need some time now.
I know i can't hide this sad feelings forever.
I must be happy.
Even though she won't be on my side again.
But if that makes her happier, then
I'll be happy.
I just need times to kill this feelings.
Days, weeks, months, years, i don't know.
Probably the rest of my life.
I can't believe i'm babbling in my blog like this, but i just want to. I'm clueless, remember?
Good night.